My Heart Says..

*hey, LIFE, please don't be cruel to me*

Hurm.. How should I put this. I know, that LIFE is not mine. It's not ours. It is Allah's. We are His. And I know, that soon, life will leave me. It will leave every single person that I love. I just don't know when. And at this stage, I am not at my best. Not at my best to my dearest persons. What if they leave me tomorrow?

I want to be better. I demand myself to be better. Ya Allah, please help me through this. You are my only hope.

Bitter sweet memories last year. Grandma and grandpa left us. Surely Allah loves them most.

Now, today, LIFE is pushing me to be a grown up. I will no longer be a kid. Getting married, going to be someone's WIFE. Going to have a new family. Going to be a new daughter to a mother-in-law, and have to be a better daughter to my own mother. Going to be a mother myself. Home manager, husband's helper, children's teacher, a good daughter that always supports her husband to be a good son to his mother, a daughter that will one day take place to take care of my own mother and father growing old.

*hey, LIFE, please don't be cruel to me*

My mind is not at its place right now. I need a starting point. To set my mind up for the life ahead. Hmm..